A looong one please

Things is so unclear. I mean, I thought it was okay, I thought im cool with it. But I realize the difference, the things that can happen when im with it , or the things that could not happen. I been patiently waiting, patiently hoping that it will happen. I wanted the one that will last, that’s goen to be tough enough for all bullshits. I wanted one that’s gonna last forever. I don’t want some lil short period of time. I never had those, and I been wanting ‘em. Idk whos tha problem me or them. I toyed too much. I fooled around. But I don’t wanna regret it, Ive done it, I cant change it. Shit happens but we learn from it. We really do. But hey, when is it coming? When am I falling again? Damn, I miss it, and I want it so bad. God, please let it come =)