30 almost months

Have u ever feel that you wanna stop but you just can't cause you know youre into it.
Like being addicted to someone who seem to not care?
But wait, how can i tell that he dont care if i know the fact that he does.
Is thinking about me, caring?
Is showing effort, caring?
Doing something that will make me happy, caring?
Sometimes Im just confuse about what really matters
I tried so many times to forget about the memories
To go on in life, move forward and pretend that nothing happened
But I cant just throw away memories that made me who I am now
Years passed but still same old person that I talk about
It aint easy to let go when you know you cant
People said I can, I just dont want to
How could I force myself to stop loving someone if i truly love them?
Im not stupid, Im not expecting for something in return
I just want to do whatever I want
I just wanna love him unconditionally
I dont have to impress nobody, I have to deal on everything that could happen
Well, I took the chance, I felt brave and strong for doing what I did
For that I realized, the relationship is strong enough
It aint immaturity. Im pleased that he understood my feelings
And he did not change after all
Ive been through the same situation almost half of my life
And Im truly thankful that I learned so much on everything
Im blessed for having this person in my life
I'll do anything that will make him happpy
No lie, but my feelings for him feels unbreakable
No man can top him
I'll never replace him for nobody
Cause I promised him that.
I love you TJAT "B"
One&only