Lifes good but it just hurt sooo bad sometimes.

The last week caused me pain physically, emotionally and mentally. It aint easy to live life everyday, you have to go through obstacles and hardship that could put you down and make you a weak person. There are not too many srong people in this world. God purposely made people weak in order for him to use them in many different ways. You dont have to be strong to be respected, care about or be loved. You just have to use you weaknesses in order to influence people in a positive way. I thought I was strong before, I thought I could do anything if I am willing to do it so. But I cannt do everything, Im weak. And I dont really care if I am, I accept whatever God wants me to be. Because everything that is planned by Him are all perfect even though we see them as not good for us or not enough. I love how God runs my life, I love how he teaches me everyday of my life. I love everything that hes done, doing and will be doing for my life. I learned so much in my life. 16 years brought me so much lessons to keep and to remember till my last breath.

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What happened today?
I finally went to school. Ive been 6 days absent. Wow. For science, we had an in class essay about genetically modified foods. I dont think i did that goood. I bullshit it. Well spanish was alright. Ms. B talked to me saying that im failing the class. i needa do make ups and hecka works. I got all the papers that I needed to complete by tomorrow. Hecka packets! Thanks to my good friend Nancy Tat for letting me borrow her paper works. Break, I went to Ms. Holland to get some of my fresh/soph works from her room. I turned in my 4 reflections to Ms.S. I need it back by tomorrow! We went to the lab for berry's class. Another in class essay about war crimes in 1945 during the Japanmese-American war. I pretty much copied from the internet and Priscilla's work. Man, Im hecka unprepared. Thanks to adam for gettin all my printed shit at the library without paying. Goodshit bro. After school I went to pizzahut to pick up my paycheck. Waited for the bus for hecka long and went to the bank to cash it out. I went to serramonte after to buy presents for tina and bianca. Julie randomly saw me. She was with her sister. We walked around and saw many people we both know. I have a new booskie! I got rid out of my old one. Well, not that but then I just feel awkward whenever I see him. Well why did I freakin add him on myspace? Makes me feel stupid. Well, I like chines boy at lane 5. Hes like one of the cutest chinese boy Ive ever seen. Well ya'll know that Philip Ma is the cutest. No homo. Well, me and julie talked to chinese boy and hes hecka noicee! I like the way he smiles. It makes me smile too. We walked around and went home about 5. My shoulder hecka hurts because of my bag. I have 2 binders. It was hecka heavy. Well, my tooth didnt hurt as I expected it to be. Well, last day of school before winter break tomorrow! Yayyy! I gotta makeup ALG2 finals, copy 3 homeworks from Cody and In class essay for English! Wow. Whatta exciting ass day! LMAO. I have work tomorrow but unfortunately he aint workin =( Okayyy. SSeee yaa nexttime. God bless.

"NEVER SWALLOW YOUR PRIDE OR PUT YOUR EMOTIONS ASIDE."

Oh oh, I talked to him today. Its beeen whilee.