Been bottled

I dont want to be inna situation where I have to make a decision. A decision where someone might hurt or feel hopeless. I didnt want it to be like this, I didnt plan this nor think of it. I dont want to fall helplessly inlove with someone who do not know how to handle a relationship. Well its just been almost 3 days but I feel like it aint going good. I thought distance aint matter but in reality it does. And its hard to care so much for someone when you know their too far. Maybe your not the right person for me, maybe we just see each other as a really good friends and maybe we cant be fully inlove. I know that you had a relationship from your past that you'll never forget even though you said you have moved on. Same here, I told myself I let go of this one person from my past but NO I haven't. I still see him with my future life and he will always be here in my heart past, present and the upcoming years. I cant let go of him, I just cant move on. Im sorry but I dont wanna lie to myself. I dont wanna lie to nobody. God knows whats deep inside me. But we'll see, we'll never know what could happen. Lets just take this slowly. And for the others, I dont wanna make anyone hopeful for something that I aint sure about. I never promised anything and never will until I know what I really want and need in life. How is it easy to keep going when someone or something is holding you back. Its like you wanna sprint but your wearing skates. Its difficult, it really is. God, please help me =)



"Difficult as you think it is."