Neeeding it.

Many people can't live without being in a relationship. Its like their dead without having a bf/gf. Well been a while, been years. But oh well although I miss it its cool with me. I miss having that person who will call me erryday. That person who will pick me up at school or drop me home from somewhere. I miss seeing my drafts/outbox full for saving cute messages. I miss the "monthsaries/anniversaries" I miss the word "bhe, baby, bhie" and all that. I miss sneaking out to see that special someone. Damn, I've been missing a lot. I feel left out sometimes. I never been in a long ass one dude. I always wanted that. There was a lot back then but I kinda fucked up before. Not that I regret all that I did but I wish I should've not do that. If I could just turn back time and change everything. I know it will be better. but hey, I don't regret things. I learnedd lots from it. Even though its been broken so many times, I know later on in life I'll find that special someone and I'll be happy. Man, this dude though. Even though it seem like I lost him, he's still be in my heart. Even though it takes time I'm so willing to wait. And i also feel like I wasted so much time hoping that its possible. but I know it is if I keep my trust in God. And I will always keep it. Honestly I need ya in my lifee! dammn it!