REAL TALK

In life sometimes you will realized that what you lose doesnt really matter at all.
Before I thought I would be depress, lonely and all that. But I realized Im really not. I tried to cry and waste all my tears but nothing fall out. I honestly did have feelings for him. I honestly loved him. But maybe as time goes by all my feelings faded. He dont even care bout me anymore. Or maybe never at all. Hes so selfish, self centered and ignorant. He dont care about what I care most. I love this guy so much. Its been real and straight up "07". All him. But when I had the courage to speak up, I feel like I lost him at all. I thought everything will be okay. I thought he will understand and talk to me. But all opposite. He did not even say a word.Not even whats up or something. I hate whats he doing. I dont wanna lose my hope for something Ive been wanting, loving, dreaming, and caring for so much. But hes the one whose making me realize that he aint deserve this. And that hes not worth it. I gave myself, my love, my friendship, my care and almost my everything for this dude. But now, Ima move on. I cant hold on to something thats pushing me away, thats making me feel dumb snd stupid, who dont appreciate ME. I needa loce myself in order for others to love me. I needa give myself the time to think and realize my mistakes. Its been a long journey for me, so many things thats going on. I needa let go of him,I needa move on in life. I will see this as a big lesson. A lesson that I will surely bring till my dying days. Ya'll dont know how much I love him, how much I care for him and how much I need him in my life. But despite of my goodness to him, he gives me back all the opposite and unecessary. Ima miss him, I will always have him in my heart. He will always be a part of my life. A part of my life that has been good, sweet, loving and later on changed. God, all these are trials. All these are happening for a reason. Im thankful for bringing him in my life. And if love is true, i know he will always comes back. I love YOU GOD! Thank You and Sorry.