Age doesnt matter

Does it really tho? People have so many reasons for telling me that age really matters. But how? Why? Its kinda hard to explain how everything started. But I believe that randomness could be the best explanation. I do not wanna expect too much on this friendship. Im not telling you to like me, its your decision. Im not telling you to tell the world about it, its your choice. My friends told me almost most of the time that it might be really difficult. Is it because Im a minor? But that dont count if you really have feelings for someone right? Why would number be important than what youre really feeling? Why do people think about what other has to say than what their heart and mind has? I dont know why but seriously, I do not wanna fall helplessly for you. I do not wanna expect too much and please dont give me hopes if you know that theres really nothing more than friends. Why does it have to be difficult? Why does age really matter? Even though I barely see you at work, it makes me wanna go there everyday for the fact that you might be there as well. Last night I was talking to my friend about *676 back in P.I. I told my friend how I still love *676. Everyday I thought my love keeps getting stronger, but how would it get stronger if Im eyeing someone else, if im crushing on someone or pay close attention to other guys. How could love be so strong if you cant feel the excitement, happiness, content and cnnection no more. Every time I look at his pictures and every memories, I dont feel the same thing I used to feel no more. I thought Ive been inlove with him all this time, I thought my love for him is always and forever. I told my friend how everything seems different between me and *676. I told him that I cant feel the love anymore. He was like "what is love if you cant feel it?" I explained to someone for the first time that my mind been tellin myself that I love *676 but my heart is unsure about it. I dont know if Im really saying I love him because thats how I feel, or am I just saying that because thats been stuck in my mind? My friend told me "jus cause ur used 2 loving him doesn't mean u always will". And thats definitely true. Im confused right now, dont know what to do, dont know what my true feelings are. My friends also told me that I should just go with the flaw, enjoy whats on me right now and dont think too much about what could possibly happen. But real talk tho, its so difficult. I dont know where Im standin right now, or where Im supposed to stand. Hay nako.