If I was asked to wait, I would

Since the first day, I’ve been thinking about the possibilities and consequences that could happen. I don’t know what you truly feel; we never even talk about it. It was never a topic since I met you. I’ve been thinking about this for so many times, the negatives, the good stuff. Is it really possible? Could it really happen? It makes me more confused every time I talk to you. Sometimes I don’t know if you were tryna make a move or you’re just being nice. Every time I see you it makes my day complete, but deep inside it’s hurting me. I didn’t mean to like you, I didn’t even try to. I don’t know what’s in you that I saw that makes me fall every single day. It’s crazy how I like you, more than I’m supposed to. I’m confused about what you really feel. Are you scared because I’m too young for you? Are you really thinking about what would other people say about it? Are you even ready for this? Are you even thinking about what I’ve been thinking? Earlier when I was about to clock in, you saw me and called my name. My heart pound so fast. I don’t know if I was excited or if I was scared. When I was talking to you, I don’t know if there’s something inside you, if there’s feelings or whatsoever. I feel comfortable talking to you; it feels like I could tell you everything. When you went to my lane earlier, I saw you looked at me. It makes me feel dead. I can’t even concentrate on what I was doing. I kept messing up. I don’t know why but while I was staring at you, I can’t picture what you really feel. People kept telling me there’s something, people kept telling me that you like me the way you act and all that but I want t hear it from you, I want you to tell me what’s really up. I don’t want to be hopeful; I don’t even want to expect cause in the end I don’t want to hurt myself believing on something that seems impossible. I know that everything is possible, but I just don’t want to keep my hopes high. I like you but why does it hurt so bad? Really bad.



"When God gave us a NO for an answer keep in mind that there’s many greater YES behind it, His NO is not a rejection but a redirection"