Look ahead

I miss the good old days, even though sometimes I want to go back to how it used to but I know for a fact that I can’t. Sometimes we got to look forward to see what’s in front of us, and try to wipe away all the bad memories and experiences we had. But how can a person forget something that made him/her stronger? As I look back to my past once again, I realized how big I changed from a hard-headed, careless girl to an independent and focused woman. And yes, I still remember all the bad things I did way back, to how rude I was, war-freak and stupid. Even though I was way different right now, I still believe that what I was before made me to who I am right now. Back in the days, life was easy. I mean, I do anything I want and I don’t care what others have to say. Before I believed that I was always right, and nothing can go wrong but now I learned how to look at other’s feelings and opinion and respect them for what they believe in. As for relationship, I learned how to straight all the shit I’ve done. I mean, I was young when I started involving myself to some silly relationships and not that I regret it but I just realized how stupid I was for putting myself into something that was not even for real. Well, I need to get my act together; it’s not always about me. It’s not always about what I want or what I prefer in every situation, I got to look at other’s side and point of view. I’m happy with life right now; I’m really pleased to how God blessed my life and how I am surrounded with people who love and care for me the most. I need to focus on what really matters, I can’t play anymore. I can’t be silly like how I used to be. I’ve grown, I’ve changed and I want to move on to what’s ahead of me. I’m seriously ready for anything that lies ahead of me. I’m ready for someone who would never say good bye. I’m ready to love and be loved again. I just can’t like someone the whole entire time; eventually I will learn how to love the people who show they deserve it. I thank God for all of this, for making me strong all the way. I believe everything happens for a reason and I trust God for everything. I love Him like crazy. And I wouldn’t be who I am if it wasn’t for Him. God bless ya’ll. Have faith.