Where have I been?

I missed 4 days of school this week, and the day that I was actually there I came in late. My life was been harsh and too many things are going on. I got the concept and it came to a conclusion, this might be my last year at Oceana. I know it sucks but I got to do what’s best for me. There are too many pros and cons that are going on in my mind and it’s really difficult to make a decision because I’m deciding about my future. Oceana is a really great school; I want to stay there for senior year. Okay let me answer my subject first; I’ve been out of school this week because of too many reasons. First, I was lazy. Second, my dad wasn’t feeling good and I had to take care of him since my mom is still in the Philippines till September. Third, I’m sick of going to Oceana every day of my life. I want to move because of too many reasons as well. I don’t want to do the senior exhibition. I feel like even if I try, it won’t lead me anywhere. I only have 50 something community service hours, I need 40 something more and base on my case right now I feel like I won’t be able to do that. Oceana is too far from my house, I got one more year to go and I can’t take it anymore. I mean waking up early to take two buses and walk up the long ass hill. It’s too much, no one drives at my house and I won’t be able to get my own car till my Lola pays off the car they bought in the Philippines. I like to graduate at Oceana though and I don’t want to leave Kristina. I’m really sad and confused; I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m thinking of going to Jefferson because it’s closer to my house and I’m sure I’ll be relax there. Too many people said it’s really chill there, you just have to show up and you’ll pass. My parents even told me to do what I think is best for me, because I’m the one studying and dealing with all these things and not them. Ughh, I’m so stressed right now. Hopefully they accept me at Jeff so it will be easier for me since I came from a difficult school already. Life is complicated these days, but I got to go with the flow. I’m not making my final decision yet, I got couple months to think about it. Hopefully I have no failing grades at Oceana since I’ve been out of school bajillion times.